The Last Day of he Year 2017
How hard the past few weeks have been. The fridge broke down. The dryer over heated. The oven started stinking. The water stopped filling in the toilet followed by no water anywhere TWICE. And x stopped paying child support, as per his usual habit for the holidays. To top it all off, I had one nasty throw up migraine.
On the bright side, kids are all healthy and my heart is doing much better. I have a roof over my head and a warm house, even though the temperature is arctic cold. And food, lots of food. But no water, ugh. I think we are on day 5 of no water. I hate this. The plumber was too busy to come and now is off for the next several days. At 175$/hour, you would think he would be here faster but oh no, holiday weekend so no show.
That is what happens when you have no one around to help you out, no family and very little friends. Actually, this tells me who my real friends are. One friend offered to check my water pump. No one offered us a shower. Definitely time to make new friends. I will work on that after we move.
Moving date ? June 23rd, 2018!
Moving where? Still up in the air
I want to be completely debt free so I will move where I can buy a house in cash. Which means it will need lots of renovations but that does not scare me at all. My kids will probably be pissed though but too bad. 2018 is MY year, not the year I do everything for them. I need to find myself, to work on myself and just be happy with who I am.
Goals!
None of my 2017 goals were achieved. Bad. So bad. In my defense, I did spent quite a bit of time worrying about my health and taking care of my son. So much time in hospitals, another surgery, a very long recovery for him.
What should my 10 top goals be for the next year?
1. Move away
Freaking move already! It is much easier to stay here but it is not the right thing to do. I am miserable here, so unhappy, always worried, always looking over my shoulder, panicking each time the phone rings, ... Enough already! Time to go, put some distance between me and this place.
2. Get healthy and in shape
Yeah, that has been my goal for so many years. Never happened though. No perseverance, always so tired. I definitely need to work on this. I have this plan, see. Hopefully, it will work.
3. Finish the renovations so I can sell this house
Yep. still not done. Do you realise how expensive renovations are? Also got a plan for this to work.
4. NO spoiling the kids
Oh how hard that one will be. NO v day gifts. NO Easter gifts. NO birthday gifts. And NO xmas gifts. NO Friday night movie night with a new movie and junk food either.
5. Xmas in Brazil
Instead of giving gifts to the kids, all that money will go into a savings account so we can go spend a few weeks in Brazil next xmas!!! Everyone thinks it is a great idea. Got a plan in place for that to work also.
6. Become a real runner
Again, got a plan in place for this to happen. I am all about plans right now.
7. Write and (hopefully) publish two books
I have been working on these for a while now so not started on the first line for this 2018 goal. This has to work. Becoming a writer has been a childhood goal of mine. Time to make it happen.
8. Just be happy
Probably the hardest goal on the list
9. Be a better mom
I definitely need to work on this one. I also need to be less tired to work on it. How to be less tired so I can be a better mom, that is the question. And the goal.
10. Be open to a romantic relationship
We will see about that one. Although I do feel the need to be open to a relationship, I am not always sure I can open my heart for one. So scared. So scarred.
There you have it, THE list.
On the bright side, kids are all healthy and my heart is doing much better. I have a roof over my head and a warm house, even though the temperature is arctic cold. And food, lots of food. But no water, ugh. I think we are on day 5 of no water. I hate this. The plumber was too busy to come and now is off for the next several days. At 175$/hour, you would think he would be here faster but oh no, holiday weekend so no show.
That is what happens when you have no one around to help you out, no family and very little friends. Actually, this tells me who my real friends are. One friend offered to check my water pump. No one offered us a shower. Definitely time to make new friends. I will work on that after we move.
Moving date ? June 23rd, 2018!
Moving where? Still up in the air
I want to be completely debt free so I will move where I can buy a house in cash. Which means it will need lots of renovations but that does not scare me at all. My kids will probably be pissed though but too bad. 2018 is MY year, not the year I do everything for them. I need to find myself, to work on myself and just be happy with who I am.
Goals!
None of my 2017 goals were achieved. Bad. So bad. In my defense, I did spent quite a bit of time worrying about my health and taking care of my son. So much time in hospitals, another surgery, a very long recovery for him.
What should my 10 top goals be for the next year?
1. Move away
Freaking move already! It is much easier to stay here but it is not the right thing to do. I am miserable here, so unhappy, always worried, always looking over my shoulder, panicking each time the phone rings, ... Enough already! Time to go, put some distance between me and this place.
2. Get healthy and in shape
Yeah, that has been my goal for so many years. Never happened though. No perseverance, always so tired. I definitely need to work on this. I have this plan, see. Hopefully, it will work.
3. Finish the renovations so I can sell this house
Yep. still not done. Do you realise how expensive renovations are? Also got a plan for this to work.
4. NO spoiling the kids
Oh how hard that one will be. NO v day gifts. NO Easter gifts. NO birthday gifts. And NO xmas gifts. NO Friday night movie night with a new movie and junk food either.
5. Xmas in Brazil
Instead of giving gifts to the kids, all that money will go into a savings account so we can go spend a few weeks in Brazil next xmas!!! Everyone thinks it is a great idea. Got a plan in place for that to work also.
6. Become a real runner
Again, got a plan in place for this to happen. I am all about plans right now.
7. Write and (hopefully) publish two books
I have been working on these for a while now so not started on the first line for this 2018 goal. This has to work. Becoming a writer has been a childhood goal of mine. Time to make it happen.
8. Just be happy
Probably the hardest goal on the list
9. Be a better mom
I definitely need to work on this one. I also need to be less tired to work on it. How to be less tired so I can be a better mom, that is the question. And the goal.
10. Be open to a romantic relationship
We will see about that one. Although I do feel the need to be open to a relationship, I am not always sure I can open my heart for one. So scared. So scarred.
There you have it, THE list.
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